Life update?!?! It's crazy...

Hey DeKay Tribe,

It's ya girl DeKay, and I wanted to pop in and start writing you guys! My love for writing has stemmed from a young age. So, I figured why not start my blog over again??? I started back in 2019 but due to outside people aka haters getting in my way I stopped....

I told myself I am never going to let another person stop my dreams (even though I still did but that's beside the point haha). This first blog is just a life update for those who do not listen to my podcast (which you should like hello?) I am 29 years old; I have a 6-year-old son who will be 7 next Wednesday and I am divorced. Yep, you read that right. Ya girl is divorced and although I never seen it happening this way, I am glad that I can finally be free and be......me! I have been learning a lot on this journey and I am still learning to be honest. Thinking about dating is scary but at the same time I have been putting in the work to heal and focus on what I can control. That took a lot of work trust me and it's still not where it should be! Also, learning self-discipline and cutting off meaningless connections (friends, family, etc) that serve no purpose. I am not perfect by any means! I have those very hard days where it's hard to wake up and constantly choose to be optimistic and productive. I have days where I cannot get out of bed, I cry myself to sleep, I scream and cuss, and of course ask God why he allowed me to go through so much. Then, I remember that he would never put more on me that I can bare and that the blame isn't on him. Alot of the times we put ourselves in situations that are 100-% preventable...I know I have plenty of times by just not listening to that voice telling me, "What the hell are you doing?" Ignoring all red flags, and just being oblivious to the fact that this is not helping my situation.

So, where I am now.....I am still healing, growing, maturing, and praying for better days. Like I said, I am not perfect at all! I still have those thoughts and self-doubt. I am excited to see where God is going to take me and my baby boy, who he is going to bring into our lives (we are a package haha this goes for friends and my future partner if you are reading this) and how I am going to use my podcast and this blog to help others! I look forward to talking to you guys soon!

With Love

DeKay