Toxic healing…I’m trying 🥺

Hey DeKay Tribe,

It's ya girl DeKay and I'm back with another bloggy blog! Today we are going to be talking about toxic healing 😮‍💨

So, my healing journey started last year and it was a slow (very slow) process to begin. I was so caught up on all the past things... that I couldn't focus on what I needed to do! I was projecting all my insecurities and feelings on others when it had nothing to do with them. I felt myself spiraling out of control and I didn't know how to fix it. I started going back to therapy, getting closer to God and really digging deep into why I am the way I am. Unpacking childhood trauma I never really spoke about, my dating life and the big one that I avoid constantly....how I truly feel about myself. I never thought I could mutter the words, "I hate myself" to anyone. I self judge so much that I constantly compare myself to other and that has been an issue since I was in elementary school. I never voiced it or spoke about it to anyone. It caused me to have a lot of secret animosity towards others. My jealousy spiraled out of control and I didn't know how to fix a problem I dealt with majority of my life. I have been getting help and learning how to self love and I can say I am to the point of........I like myself but love? I am working on it still...I do show myself self love by treating myself! I love a good pamper day where I get my nails, toes, eye brows, lashes and the whole 9 yards done 😂 so I am getting there. Today has been a day I will say that...it's been hard but I have been taking it moment by moment. Getting out of self, putting my feelings to the side and being okay with how things are right now. I do believe they will get better in due time but for now I am living in the moment 💞 until next time tribe.

With Love,

DeKay

P.S: What's up tribe! Are you bold enough to drop how your healing journey has been? Toxic? Slow? Going good? Let me know in the comments below!

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